Whether it’s been 3 years, 3 months, 3 weeks or 3 days–I don’t miss him any less. The fact that I can swell up in tears at the instant thought of him means nothing has really changed. It is especially difficult to deal with around this time of the year. I cannot fall asleep when my head is full of thoughts about him. I keep seeing him in my dreams when I finally do. I look at his photos and memories come flooding back. The only comforting thought to carry on is the glimmer of hope that he is always with me, watching over me and our family.

He was the happiest and most optimistic person I have ever met. He might have been flawed to other people, but he was always perfect in my eyes. After he was gone, a permanent dark cloud looms over our heads every day. Nothing is the same anymore. Just a big broken mirror with glass pieces glued in place.

Still, I will try to make him proud. Because I am my father’s daughter.

Because he is my hero.

After two+ years, I finally decided to chop my long hair off. It’s been fun, long hair, but my inner self has always preferred short (if not shorter) hair. Long hair is pretty and can even be glamorous, but for whatever reason I just feel it kind of lacks everything else.

Anyway, this was mainly a result of me feeling restless lately. They always come and go–coming more often than leaving, actually. In those moments I would flood my head with all sorts of thoughts or escape in my daydreams, which generally comprise of three things: a) living in my own place b) traveling to warm/sunny beaches or c) leaving Seattle [semi-permanently]. Since none of those things are happening any time soon, I desperately crave for other therapeutic, happy distractions. Even temporary, superficial distractions are welcome.

I LOVE and REALLY WANT a pair or two of these shoes (designed by Sara Gulyas). Basically, you choose your lace color(s) and shade of premium quality leather. Then you get a kit that contains everything you need to make your own pair of ‘Pikkpack’ shoes. The concept is awesome (I love any/all DIY), and the shoes look so comfortable and light to wear as well. For more images of the shoes, click here.

They’re also making a Kickstarter, and I can’t wait until this product launches.


{Images via PIKKPACK}

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